Sister Wives star Meri Brown is commemorating the life and mourning the loss of the late Robert Garrison Brown. The Brown family has shared their lives on the reality series for the past 14 years. Meri was the first wife of Kody Brown, and she served as a mother figure for Christine and Janelle Brown’s children. Tension among the family grew after Kody married his fourth wife, Robyn Brown. Meri has been very supportive of Kody and Robyn throughout the years, while Kody arguably destroyed the Brown family.

Though they’ve clashed throughout the years, the Brown family came together after Janelle’s son Garrison tragically died. Since his passing, Meri has utilized social media to share her condolences for Garrison’s passing. Meri recently posted a throwback picture with Garrison, sharing how upset she was about his passing. Sister Wives fans have defended Meri amid the hate she’s received for using social media to mourn his death. Meri has been grieving the loss of Garrison, but she’s had conflicts with Christine Brown’s son, Paedon Brown, and former sister wives Christine and Janelle in the past.

Meri’s Throwback Of Her & Garrison Brought Her To Tears

She Found The Photo By Accident

Meri cried after finding a throwback picture of Garrison following his death. She has been very open about her grieving process on social media. Meri came across the photo, which was from 2018, randomly when she was searching through her camera roll. “A photo I didn’t remember I had, and one that I will forever cherish,” she wrote. “Seeing it immediately moved me to tears, a testament of the love I have for him, the pain of the loss of him. It’s a reminder that grief comes in unexpected waves, memories of the moments with him all that remains.”

In Sister Wives, the relationships in the Brown family seem very fractured. Meri’s posts on social media show an endearing, loving side to the family that viewers haven’t seen on Sister Wives in years. The loss of Garrison has shocked the Brown family, and it’s nice to see them celebrate their memories with him from over the years. “Four weeks today without him here with us,” Meri continued in the caption, adding, “A lifetime of memories to hold sacred.” While Meri’s active online, she’s been careful to respect her family’s privacy at this difficult time.

Meri hosts regular “Fridays with Friends” lives on Instagram, where she interacts with Sister Wives fans. Meri hosted a live with her friend Jenn Sullivan on March 16, which was roughly one week after Garrison had passed. During the live, Meri told fans she was not going to address comments relating to her family. “If I talk about it, I’m gonna cry,” she shared, adding that she would not be going into “any detail” of Garrison’s death in respect for Janelle and the rest of her family.

Meri Brown Was Accused Of Abuse By Paedon Brown

He Has Been Open About Their Relationship

Christine’s son, Paedon, has accused her of abuse. During a YouTube live with John Yates, Paedon opened up about his experience being raised by Meri. In response to a comment about Meri potentially being “abrasive and kind of mean,” Paedon confirmed these claims. “Abrasive and kind of mean are not strong enough words, they are not aggressive enough words,” Paedon said, adding how “Meri was not nice… Abrasive is not enough of a word to explain what Meri was to a few of us children specifically.” Paedon also added that the “abrasive” acts “move[d] so far past verbal.”

During the YouTube live, Paedon referenced a fight that began between Janelle’s daughter Maddie Brown and Meri in 2019 on Twitter, but the tweets have since been deleted. However, Soap Dirt posted screenshots of Maddie’s tweets about Meri that read, “Try being scared of someone your whole f***ing life and she plays like she’s the one whose [sic] hurting! She was a monster!” Paedon agreed with Madison’s claims. “I can reiterate what Madison said about Meri,” said Paedon, adding, “No, we were never safe around her.” Paedon went on to say that Robyn opened their eyes to Meri’s behavior.

Christine Brown Snubbed Meri Brown (She Wasn’t Invited To Christine’s Wedding)

Janelle Was The Only Sister Wife Invited To Christine’s Wedding

After Christine left Kody, her relationship with Meri changed forever. Christine and Meri have had conflict throughout their times as sister wives, but their relationship virtually ended after Christine left Kody. Christine told PEOPLE in a joint interview with Janelle that immediately after her separation from Kody, she had “spoke[n] with Meri one time” and crossed paths “a couple of family functions.” Christine wasn’t expecting their relationship to be so strained after leaving Kody. “I thought it would be different,” she said, adding, “But I don’t think it’s going to be different than that.”

Since Christine got divorced, she has remarried to David Woolley. Meri, Robyn, and Kody were not invited to Christine’s wedding ceremony to David, while Janelle was in attendance. A source told the U.S. Sun unveiled Meri’s true feelings about Christine’s wedding. Meri allegedly “could care less” about not being invited to Christine’s wedding. “Truthfully, she could care less,” said the source. “They had a falling out and have been distant ever since Christine left the family and moved to Utah.” Since Christine and Meri’s relationship was fractured, she seemingly had no problem not being invited to the wedding.

“They were never close as sister wives or best friends for that matter,” added the source, adding, “There is no love lost between them.” Despite this, Meri still has hope that they can bridge their gap. “It’s going to take all parties involved, you know what I mean?” she told PEOPLE, adding, “But I’m not closing any doors.” On Sister Wives, she also admitted she’s “really happy” for Christine and her new marriage with David.

Meri Brown Said She Was “Harsh And Aggressive” With Janelle Brown

Meri Has Carried Resentment For Janelle

The problems in Meri and Janelle’s relationship as sister wives started years before Sister Wives season 18 or the show started. During the show, Meri admitted she was “harsh and aggressive” towards Janelle after she got pregnant. Meri was “devastated” that Janelle was able to get pregnant before her, which went on to complicate their relationship. In her interview with Christine, Janelle said she lacked “the history” with Meri and Robyn to have as close a relationship with them as she does with Christine.

The entire Brown family is grieving the loss of Garrison. Meri has been outspoken on social media about how Garrison’s death has affected her life. While Meri has feuded with Paedon, Christine, and Janelle in the past, they must support each other in such a tragic time.